Thanks Subitai. It's really my daughter who needs focus since she's always my highest priority, but I'll try to focus on myself. I still struggle with figuring out what that means because nothing I do for myself makes me feel any better. At this stage in life (39) with a small child I have no interest in being alone or living the single life. The future just feels scary. I don't have a choice though. It's hard when well intentioned friends who are happily married say, "you should celebrate that he's gone!" Or, "you deserve better!" It's easy to say that when you're not in that position, but there's nothing to celebrate about a family breaking apart. And sure, I deserve better, but what I wanted is my husband. He was the best for me (before all this started).
