SD Diary, Thursday morning. I have just got up and am making the tea. I could start the day in one of three moods. Happy, OK or p!ssed off. Guess which one I am and all because of a fleeting second of typical LDW behaviour. This morning W got up, went to the bathroom and came back. On a wave of passion I gave her a lovely back rub and cuddle. She could do one of three things. Show pleasure by hugging my arm, do nothing or pull away. She did nothing so I feel OK and moved away. Just before I had to get up and on another wave of passion I just moved close to her, in contact but not doing anything. If she loves me she would respond favourably, say by moving towards me. If she is indifferent to me she would do nothing and if she does not love me she can move away. She chose (or it was an automatic response, which is worse) to move away from me showing me that she does not love me so that is why my day has started badly and she will be late getting her cup of tea because I am spending time posting here. I am tempted to email her my dissatisfaction over this sort of thing as she would get very cross if I try to discuss it with her. Does that count as a 180 - telling her what mistakes she makes rather than saying nothing and stewing over it.
