Living in the Present, only Looking Forward

[Coconut]

So a little update and don't chop my head off, I understand what I'm doing/chancing, my eyes are open.

So the day after I started talking to Ms. Love Languages (I think the same day I wrote my last post), I was on facebook and I got a post from a local group that I belong to. It was a post asking for recommended restaurants in the area, so I was browsing through the comments, looking at all these great restaurants in my area that I didn't know existed, thinking that I really need to meet some people locally to go out with so I can visit some of them (not a big fan of sit down dinner alone).

I came upon a comment saying something to the effect of, "new in town, hard to make friends to visit these places with, anyone interested". I was like, oh damn, that was bold, and I commented back that I understand, I was pretty new to town and it is difficult to meet people to hang out with. She then PM'd me on FB and we started talking, lets just refer to her as Witty.

Conversation has been great, like really great, lots of shared experiences (both lived in South Florida, both do a lot of fishing, outdoor activities, etc.). In general we just have a lot in common and relate to each other very well. Little flirting here and there, nothing blatant, just occasional innuendos.

Anyway, I was so into talking to her, that I started to be short on my responses to Ms. LL, so I eventually sent her an email letting her know that I thought she was awesome, but there's someone else that I'm talking to and I wasn't giving enough time/thought into my conversation with her so I was going to stop writing. She thanked me for being upfront.

Now here's the kicker, witty has only been separated for 4 months, and her breakup was due to H having multiple A's. Witty told me about the 4mos S the first or second day, just learned the why yesterday. She also told me the first day that she was not looking for a R at all, just wanted to make friends to hang out. Obviously her situation being what it is, I do not want a R with her (at least not now, not for a long time), but I am attracted to her.

Now, having great conversation with someone that I am attracted to (haven't met, but seen pics on FB) tends to stir up some feelings... Feelings that have been dormant since, well, a long time. When you don't want to date, aren't open to new R, you don't nurture those feelings, so no big deal. But now, geez, i'll just say it, I need to get laid.

So my thought is that getting to go hang out with her will be a great way for me to get out and meet people around town, but my attraction for her is going to make that quite awkward. As I'm sure it will be for her, because I know she is also attracted to me, but has reiterated that she is NOT looking for anything other than friends. She even said it would bother her to see me meet someone, but she knows we are in two different places and doesn't want me to hold back. But of course saying it and how it would actually feel are two totally different things.

To bad I don't live in Nevada, lol.