I woke up feeling sick to my stomach. I miss H and our family together. We were at my D9 dance performance last night and Tried to remain upbeat. I was laughing with my friends and he sat next to our other D's. The grieving is hardest at night. I still really love him and I do not want to lose our family. I begin to detach and then get scared. I want this all to stop. I want him to stop!!
