Fighting my way out of the dark - Part 8

[Holding]

Things are trucking along for me. My head continues to clear with the distance from XW.

Our primary means of communication is the website we agreed to use. Things are going ok on that front. It is what it is.

I have to physically interact with her maybe twice a week. For a while she stayed in her car when she came to the house for dropoff or pickup, but the last few times she's come up to the door.

I did have a down moment this morning. For some reason, the day we told the kids about the D popped into my head. I can see it's going to take a while for that particular pain to go away. How XW was able to sit there stone faced, I'll never understand.

D decree has still not been accepted by XW's L, as far as I'm aware. Our mediation was almost 20 days ago, and I figured we'd have moved this along by now. The delay is annoying.

Last weekend I treated myself to a wardrobe update. I'm working on improving my appearance more. I also need to be more consistent with working out, but it's rough in the weeks I have the kids.

I'm thinking more about my future, new goals, and the possibility of new R's. But the idea of another M frankly scares the sh!t out of me.