I too side with Mach here ... I see it as a touch and go. I will not reply much to what Andrew said other than the advice I give you was hard learned, did it save my M no... but what it did do is it gave me a second chance at what looks to be a pretty good life on the other side.
To touch on your fear of doing things right, I am not so sure there is a wrong way to handle this crisis other than to go against things that are inevitably better for yourself in the long run. Keep in mind a stronger better version of Gordie is a win win regardless of the outcome of your M.
Read Machs above post again and really think about what you want out of all this, what you want to be.
