Your words bring me comfort. And you certainly right. The old cycle is destructive. There are days where I am strong and then there are days where the struggle is intense. Divorce or no divorce the reality is that we have self destructive behaviors. The changes I have made have been noticed by the way he interacts with me. I can tell he is scared to be divorced by the way he acts. He did tell me a long time ago that he did not want to be divorced but did not know what else to do. I am working on committing to DB skills and improving myself. It is a long hard road.
