Journaling ...

Unusual for me not to have much to say, which is maybe a good thing. On Friday I had a work related dinner and went out to eat. I did text the W and D17 that I would be home later than usual. Came home at about 8pm and W was relaxing on the bed in the MBR. She eventually left to go to the couch.

On Saturday I left around 9am to do some of my GAL activities. Came back about 4pm and W was gone "to do errands" my D11 told me. I then received a series of 3 emails about reconciling our joint banking account. I guess she went to a Starbucks to try to calculate our finances. I spent an hour at a new opening at a golf course 5 minutes from my house. Had a glass of wine with a friend there. Came back and did pizza with my girls for dinner. The W came home about 9:30pm with home-made creme brulee that we all ate.

On Sunday, did crossfit in the morning, and spent most of the afternoon basking in the sun on the patio, reading, and drinking wine. While I was outside, my W was lying in D11's bed. Probably on her phone. I went again to another work related dinner. Came home about 7pm. The W and I then did our financial business of figuring out how to split the household bills. It was very business like. We both went to bed afterwards.

My W is usually the one making lots of social commitments and doing lots of activities. I notice these past two weeks that it seems like the opposite. My schedule is packed with activities, and she's been spending much more time at home.

I don't think DB-ing is going to change anything. We live side-by-side in the house together with little interaction. I may have actually seen her for only a few hours, no conversations other kids or household business. No touch. If fact, as time goes on, I'm less and less interesting in reconciling. I am projecting this feeling onto her since I assume the distance between us is also killing any feelings she may have for me.


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