Yesterday I had a bad day, she was gone all day left me alone with the kids and didn’t say a word I fought all of my impulse not to ask where was she but I broke down and asked my step son (24) if he talked to her. I kinda suspected he did since I was with our DD(4) and I couldn’t imagine her not checking up on her. So went to him and asked him not to betray me, since I felt they were covering for each other. Read my original sitch for the details. Anyone he didn’t like that he said he already told me he wouldn’t do that and says that it was getting annoying because I’m looking for “something” that wasn’t there in regard to his mom having an OM. He says he has no proof and he asked her point blank. I should have dropped it, I know the rules about not involving friends and family. But I couldn’t so I tell him about the recording I had of her telling someone on the phone “I love you babe” and he got more angry telling me to leave him out. So I stoped and apologized for getting him involved. It was a rough day, I didn’t see her all day and i cried, I really miss her. I didn’t say anything to her and the next morning I played it cool we talked briefly about my DD homework and I left for work later I texted about some bills and that’s it. It’s really hard being in the same house with her, I’m trying to GAL, I’m exercising and Wed I’m leaving out of town for 4 days. I know this takes time, I just haven’t seen any movement from her side. She met up with my Best Friends wife and she tells me that they talked and that my W says she’s made up her mind, but my friends says she wasn’t convinced by the ways she was talking. I want to tell her I’ll do what it takes, but I think she already knows that. I need to give her her space and be done, no expectations and focus on myself. It’s just really hard with her in the house, how can someone that I’ve none for so long become a complete stranger?
