I slept on this decision hoping to awake with clarity or conviction. I have neither. I also realize I have put up these huge walls around my heart. And she wants romance? I think she expected me to jump up and down and have some super emotional reaction to her decisions, but I greeted her with extreme cautiousness. I feel I am in uncharted territory with no map and no guide. God, help me.
Gordie 40s W 40s M20+ kids 2016 BD W fantasy affair w OM1 I do everything wrong 2017 I start to DB W says TLTL files for D PA w OM2 2018 I do LRT W drops filing and OM2 situation slowly improving
