I'm just taking it day by day. I have no control over him or what he does. Whether he pays or doesn't, whether he files or doesn't. I'd like to at least make it until S is enrolled in college for legal reasons, but only time will tell if I do. After that, who knows. As long as the status quo is ok for us, I will press on.
I really am caring less every single day what he does or doesn't do. My kids are my gauge. Now things are good and I can live with that for today. I no longer feel the need to control the outcome or white knuckle my way through life. I'm accepting those curve balls better every day.
I am even beginning to focus on the good that has come out of this situation. In my situation I've found that it is there if I look hard enough.
