Infidelity/WAH, my story pt 12, D on hold

[PsySara]

I think I'm done. Tonight WH basically told me I have to ask permission to even talk to him. We were discussing the care of the dogs eye stains and I was starting to tell him how I was about to try a new technique. He told me he didn't even ask and I basically talk too much. This was after an entire day of barely talking. It's fairly clear to me he doesn't respect me, he doesn't even care if he hurts my feelings. I wouldn't treat a stranger on the street with as much contempt and apathy as he treats me. I think I've turned every stone and it's time we had the D Talk tonight. I've given it my all and I don't even like being near him anymore. I dread coming home and find reasons to put it off. I find excuses to be in another room than him. Frankly if he's cheating again it would only give me relief as it would just emboldened my decision.

I don't fear single parenting anymore. I do fear the repercussions on my children as I cannot turn back time and find them a good example of a husband and father. It's time, I will call my lawyer tomorrow and have her re-start the process of D. I tried and unfortunately will not be a successful DBer. It's my baby's 2nd birthday today and I've just felt lonely and sad remembering his birth 2 years ago. WH was in the room but cold and barely talked to me, even when pushing he would not hold my hand. What a despicable @sshole.