Reading the synopsis of your past year and all the progress, has GOT to give you some motivation to keep on keepin on. I really regret my h's moving out. It was the only possibility at the time and well, it will take me longer to get my h back...but he is GOING to come home.
You know that yours is moving closer and closer to you.You need to take a stand for yourself. I am in the same boat as you with my weight. I know that every extra pound is a lack of integrity to myself. Maybe our men will want us more when we tackle our weight issues, not JUST because we look better...but because of what it means about how we value ourselves....
Losing the weight will be as slow and tedious as the year of db'ing you just went through...but if we stick to it, all our babysteps can really mean something VERY spectacular....
