Well crap... Just when i thought things could kind of "settle" down a little with me keeping my distance like i was and her sort of accepting that, things escalated tonight!!!
She was alone upstairs, so when i got back she again told me how lonely she felt so i just sat beside her and gave her a friendly hug just to show her support in a way, but that i can't give her anything else atm.
Well, i guess that's just not good enough for her, because all of a sudden she burst out screaming at me how i should just make a ****ing choice to either get the h@l out or be with her!! That i have no respect for HER feelings and just look after myself. That I get to decide what is the right thing to do (distance between us) and that she has no say in that.
It's like she forgot what she did a while ago (BD) and what that did to me. It's normal i guess since her empathy chip is broken right? Maybe it's my fault in the way that i never really told her how she broke my heart by dropping that bomb though? She MUST have noticed it though....
Ugh i really don't know what to do or say anymore, driving me nuts right now.
If i COULD just leave like that i would, i really would. What about our son though? Right now she's dead set on me either staying and being with her again OR leaving the house and our son.
No middle ground right? Well, too bad that my actual goal is to eventually be with my family again but not NOW since it's freaking impossible right now?
