Gordie #16: walking away from from MLC W

[Gordie]

Mach,

Thanks for stopping by with the hard questions. As I said above, I have mixed feelings. I want to be happy and hopeful but I am still guarded and cautious. I want connection and amazing sex but the former is more important and a prerequisite for the latter in my book and no, I would not take just the latter. Reconciliation is rebuilding love and M between the two of us. I agree the old M is dead. I feel like I’m in uncharted territory because I don’t know what a new M between us would look like. I definitely want more honesty and openness and willingness to say the uncomfortable and to work through issues and no sweeping them under the rug. We can’t pretend she didn’t have an affair. I also don’t want her blaming me for all of the life choices she now regrets.

I asked her that q and she responded she wants to “feel” cherished and held and supported in all of her endeavors. She wants us to be more independent of each other financially, socially, and to not feel suffocated and controlled by me and the M. She ““couldn’t hear her own voice” and now that she can she doesn’t want to lose that ever. She wants me to love her and not the role she plays in my life.