Picking up Her MESS #2

[marina7]

Journaling,
Vanilla again Thank you for being my life line after almost 10 months am still here and I know at one point I wanted to save my marriage now am saving kids and myself.

W was my first true love and my soulmate but W also has her demons that will never go away as my therapist said W could fall again in couple of years again and is that fair for you amd kids. Therapist is right I can't see myself and my kids going through this again.

W is still angry won't make eye contact won't hug kids gives them a half way hug. So this weekend is W week with S8 and D9 until the trial, typical kids they want to pack snacks which I allowed when kids get out D9 was shaky I told d9 use the tools you been giving in therapy when W makes you sad or angry D9 didn't want to let go. I gave s9 a hug which W didn't let him get out of car but I open door and hug him.
Kids took snack bag which I didn't say No I let them pack snack for themselves and brother. W grabs bag and says I don't need F**king food I have food for them I look at W and said is not a big deal is just snacks they pack and got in car and drove away. I honestly would have thought W woild have been stoke to see kids after 3 months but you could tell it was obligated her attitude suck towards kids SMH. I try to stay away from her I have my best friend or a friend with me just in case she tries to accuse me of something. I am basically staying out her way. I know we have to co parent I know we will forever be connected if W stays in kids life I at one point loved and respected W that's all gone because she is no longer a W or a mother now she is a stranger I have to protect myself and kids from because W is willing to hurt any of us.

Vanilla her lying has gotten worse and W has accused me of some serious things to people but like they say everything comes out. W has lied to her own lawyer telling her S9 is biologically her son and d9 and s8 was my biologically my kids but my lawyer clarified that to her lawyer I have all original adoption paperwork they all adopted. That's another lie and latest saying I open CC in her name and officer ask how I got her identity information W claims I was a ex roommate... Wow we have 3 cc joint which we open in 2011 and we both in account and we where together from 2007 till 2017 so not sure how she thinks that way when I have over 10 cc my credit cards W was a authorized user and she rack them up and when I try to call they told me am still responsible even if W was using but again a little to late before I seen what W was doing I had heard worse cases but W took 20,000 savings and cc rack up and I could do anything bit take to civil court but it would have cost me more paying lawyers so I suck it up and said lesson learn. W uses the police dept for everything W feels untitled due to military back ground and her education she always feels she is better than everyone which is sad. But I will keep protecting my kids and myself.

A day at a time