Well everyone, I posted a response yesterday. I even saw it up on the BB, but now it's gone.
I am down 3 lbs this week.
I began taking the Trim Spa. It doesn't do anything for my hunger, but it makes me mentally care less about eating. So, the hungry horrors I usually have (coupled with boredom at work) at 2 PM each day are gone.
I have been working out very hard in the gym, and I'm down. I know it's fat because I have been dieting for so long, I don't have excess water weight on me.
For all of you who are interested, I will continue to post my Trim Spa results for you. I did a lot of research on it on the web before beginning. It's basically glorified vitamins and fiber. But it seems to be working for me - other than being VERY expensive. (I found it for $29 at GNC on sale until the end of June, but it's normally $40 for a 10 day supply)
Other than that, I was so sore from working out hard last night that H offered to cook dinner and served me mine in bed. He let me sleep in this a.m. We had a great lunch together. He again seems close to me today. But then, by tomorrow, he may be distant again... who knows? Who cares even, as long as the overall trend continues in the right direction and babysteps continue to make their appearances from time to time.
I think this whole patience thing is finally sinking in. I think I finally get it, as I don't have the sense of urgency or forcing the issue that I used to have.
And I think this may be what is causing H to soften towards me more now than he has before. I know sometimes he feels distant, but overall, he feels emotionally closer to me weekly.
He's even being nicer at times. More gentle, more loving, doing more things for me, thinking about me more.
K, well, gonna go now. Thanks for continuing to support me. It's so important to me to have friends that care. This BB is great. I miss my old friends also, and I hope they are out there reading and taking solace in the fact that it's possible to win at this DBing stuff...
