Other people's posts really have me thinking lately. First, I read Zues posts and I feel his passion. His soul is alive. He nurtures what feeds his soul. I miss that feeling. I was always passionate about my work as a nurse, working with others. I am not doing that right now. Working out often and testing my limits and getting out and trying new activities made me feel alive. I am very slowly gaining that back. Very slowly. Very very slowly, lol. In the short time I have had the chance to be someone's romantic partner, I loved it. Don't have that right now. So, really, I need to find a way to do what I am passionate about again. I am trying for more volunteer opportunities and maybe a second job. But I need a passion, there is no doubt.
Then, over on another thread discussing child custody schedules, I realized something. My daughter will most likely not be having anymore overnights during the week with her father come high school. His house is too far away from the high school and she has to be there too early. He won't mind losing the week nights. I'll be ok with it, as she will be more self-sufficient. I hope she is ok with it and will be very involved in activities and friends. A lot of the future is pretty unknown still.
AT work we have an intranet that the whole system has access too. There is a section for "shout-outs" where you can thank a fellow employee and say something positive. I was going to wait until I was done, but yesterday I decided To give my PT and the assistant a shout out. I wanted them to know the way they go above and beyond is appreciated and I wanted their manager to see that too. I know we all go to work for our paycheck and do what is expected of us and that shouldn't really require extra praise, but they do go above and beyond and I know they would love to feel appreciated. It's anonymous, but from my post, they figured out it was me. I came in and they both said "it was you!!!!" they hugged me and both said they were having crappy days and it really made their day.
SO yes, I like to make other people happy. It's partially selfish, but it mostly comes from a place of empathy. I know how it feels to be down in the dumps, unappreciated or just depressed. And if I could make one person's day a better day, well, then I made a difference in this world. That does feed my soul too.
Don't get me wrong, I am no mother Theresa. I will flip off the first person who cuts me off or does something stupid on the road and I will react to someone who pisses me off. But I must say, in my older age, I am much more mindful of what kind of day these people might be having and I try not to be such an A hole.
Got some fun stuff coming up the next few weekends. And hopefully a trip to FL the first weekend in March.
