Thanks for those words, that shows me that i may indeed be on the right path here.
Actually, i believe i just "adjusted" pretty quickly to the whole situation, because i have told myself over and over again that no matter what i will NOT want a R with her again IF it is not a completely renewed one from both sides! What is the point if we're gonna be doing this whole thing over again in a few months time? Might as well do it right now or not at all!
Maybe it's also just a matter of her having kind of lost her "charm" or her hold over me emotionally. I was very dependent on her during practically all our marriage and i only NOW realize that i can do this on my own, that i can be my own man and survive without her. This kind of scares her i think, well rather the thought of being ALONE scares her, not so much losing ME, but then that may just be the pessimist in me talking, that is speculation after all.
