I know I failed all of you here and can only apologies BUT I try to find some positive from all the negative…
Mark, you haven't failed anyone, least of all "us." You don't owe us anything, we're here to support you, not for you to answer to us in any way. Remember this is all about YOU, what YOU want, and what YOUR future looks like. Don't externalize this. You need to be doing everything you're doing for YOURSELF (and in some cases your children) and not for your WW, or us, or the mailman.
Don't lose sight of that.
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How will the AP/LO react after hearing about this conversation..?
How would he hear about the conversation? Are you going to tell him? Why? I know it's tempting to want to tell the AP all the crap your W is saying and doing (which demonstrate her poor character, and the fact that she's "disloyal" to him, too) but I promise it won't do you any good. First off, you're just giving HIM power over you, too, and do you really want that? Then, you're giving your WW the kibbles of having both of you fight over her. She wants that. She wants the drama, and to feel wanted and desired by both of you. You're also displaying weakness. And, of course, you will give your WW yet another reason to be "angry" with you ("how dare you take what I told you and try to embarrass me with it!")
Beyond that? He's either not going to care, or not going to believe you, anyway. I promise that he's either:
a: a piece of grade A human garbage that doesn't give a rats ass b: absolutely convinced that your WW is the most awesome, special woman in the world, and you're a total POS who doesn't deserve her, and all of this is your fault, and you deserve what you got.
Don't go there. You will set back what you hope to accomplish. You will damage your mental health further. Continue to detach, focus on you, and accept that you have control over nothing but yourself.
