Gordie #16: walking away from from MLC W

[Gordie]

K, Ginger, Cali, Hawho,

Thank you. I am trying my hardest to let her figure this out on her own. Honestly, it’s hard not to try and fix her. She still asks me for advice all the time. I want to say but have never said: I think you are still processing a lot of things about XXX and what happened between XXX and XXX. You were never allowed to grieve and process those things and it’s still hurting you today. You were forced to grow up too quickly and then a few years later we met and quickly got married and had kids and “life” kept us busy. It’s important that you get to heal from those wounds now in whatever way you need in order for you to grow and become healthy and be the person you want, irrespective of any relationships. You say you are confused and don’t know what you want and need more time to figure things out. I believe you and I pray that you do figure things out—for you.

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Journaling:

Also don’t know if I handled this well, but w’s L came back with comments on the agreement again. I read them and told her I thought they were b s and would not sign. I said I’m done negotiating. I have been more generous than any court would ever require so if she can’t agree to the last version then I am done spending $ on this out of court settlement and we should just go to court. I told her I know I will get a better deal in court and she knows it too. So she said she will sign the last version. She sent an email to her L saying that while I sat there and she showed me the email. She was not combative at all; she was quite subdued. Confession; I still wish for her to call me and say I’ve dropped the D filing, but I know in my head that is not going to happen—it’s just my heart won’t let go of that hope.