Thanks guys....I will definately stay the course and continue to ride it out. I really don't see her changing her mind at this juncture and I agree M she is still on her journey. It doesn't appear like she is going delay it any longer. I sure wish I could have had the opportunity to reconnect with her and build a stronger relationship so while DBing saved me I appear to be another one the fallen soldiers.
I appreciate the compliment LH and M as I do consider myself good at DBing but it just goes to show that it takes 2 make it work. That you can do everything perfectly but in the end without the 2nd party engaging you don't stand a chance.
I will definately suggest the Mediation route with her which I think we can do because we have been civil and working with each other the entire time. The only thing that could mess that up would be the enablers she has around her that have recently or are currently going through D.
So we shall see what Saturday brings. The funny thing is that she asked me to meet at Chili's so we could discuss. I responded back to her and I said I am not sure what you want to discuss but if we are going to go over finances etc. I don't think Chili's is the best place to do it. She agreed and said we would meet at the house. I was like really???? Chilis?????? SMH.
So I will keep my head held high, treat Saturdays conversation as I am a high value item. I don't think she will bring up our R but if she does I won't get sucked into the conversation. If she asks me if I want a D I think I will just tell her that I don't want to be with someone who doesn't want to be with me, who doesn't love me, or want to spend time with me so if you don't feel that way and you don't want to try then we are moving forward. Not sure what else to say but I am not going fall over myself if it comes up.
My chin is up, I don't feel overly sad, maybe a little dissapointed.
