So things have calmed down a LITTLE, we talked a little about it and she has calmed down quite a bit now. I must have REALLY hurt her with that comment so she overreacted.
We now somewhat agreed to go back to where we were in the days and weeks before, which was her doing her thing basically and me trying to be the best i can be, as respectful and supporting of her as possible given the circumstances while still being detached (although probably not as much as i SHOULD be but it's hard since TOTAL detachment is something she can't take i guess and i don't want to totally close the door).
The thing is, i KNOW that everyone here says that the WAS has made her choice long ago and that she doesn't want ME but is just scared of the consequences of me leaving, meaning her losing the comfort and safety and all the other social implications.
I guess i just need more patience in the end so that i don't blow up like i did before with that comment anymore. I CAN'T lose my cool like that, it's extremely unhealthy for everyone involved!
I need to stick to the plan and give it time and keep standing, it's just so so hard since i have always been someone that wants to "resolve" situations so i can feel safe again, and in this case the quickest way to do that would probably be divorce/separation but maybe that is not the wisest course of action. She even said herself earlier that that is something she does not want.
It all comes down to whether i want to keep standing or give up i suppose, that is the REAL question i need to ask myself!!!!
I don't have an answer yet. Sorry for the panic post earlier guys!!! I am confused lol
