Also, at DC I got the equivalent of IDLY. She said what was the other option to divorce? Stay married when she doesn't have those feelings for me anymore? She didn't say IDLY, but the effect was the same. A gut punch for sure. I had, in my head, been believing she still loved me, but just didn't think I could change, and all my 180s would save the day. Those feelings are completely gone, though.
It has been 7.5 months for me and my W is still done, done and more done.
I can tell you from experience at some point in time, once you are more healed you will begin to wonder if this is all worth it and if you really want her back. Once you get a chance to step back and take inventory of all the damage she has done.
Early on everyone is wrapped up into every conversation and interaction you have but over time you really won't care as much and you will become more comfortable with how you conduct yourself and with DBing in general.
