Sandy, thank you very much...i felt supported. I have doubt about am i overreact about her behavior, am i not understand correctly and so on and so on...and finally am i deserve My Wife to be my wife and not allow some other men flirt with her and she flirt with them...i really was accept all of her behavior, because i have made so big ans so many mistakes in the past. Thank you that support me to have right to be forgiven, and to have right to ask my WW to stop behaving, as she is.
So about yesterday: My wife talk about our last fight with her GF: She said to her that, the things was not going i right direction with me. And told her how i was going out when she had answered to OM2, then she told her, how offended is she from my reaction (about i will not tolerate her behavior), the FG said that my behavior is out of sense. The GF said that if Im so much jealous or i need to made a reason to leave the home (aka to do something with OM), my W told that she was thinking the same, and comment way it is needed to be so much rood to her if i want to go out, just go out. Then she show to her GF, the FB messages she send to me (how i can judge her after what i have done to her, that is not easy to live with me 5 years after my infidelity, how dear i can judg her, and so on, i was not answer the FB messages, and My W told her that later i call her to say she is free (that was not true), the she said that she is done. Her GF told her to leave me to see, what i will do without her, then my wife answer he that other GF of her told her "i can believe, how you survive this life, she was on work all day and take care of the kids and everything - and take this ....my bed behavior" (i think there is not such a GF, she just play pity game..) Later with other colleagues of her and this GF, she commented that the evening they will go to sport, and she do not wont to allow me to join them, because she is angry at me (said in joking way), the she said she is 99.9% sure i will went, because in the morning i was taken my sport clothes, but i did not. I went home after my W, we did not talk at all, like silent treatment. Just civil, i was so much different, did not ask nothing. When i come home she start FB and try to hide a little bit the screen (she was FB to our sport trainer). but her intention was to look like something different (FB OM2).
So in the morning was the same, i did not do coffee to her. Then before i went to wokr, she start to talk to me about the sport scheduler for next month, and she was FB our trainer at the evening, i said OK, and said buy, she was looking like different (eye contact and imprecation ) - (she was look like this when she is interested in something about me - or when she play game - be good W).
I start her car, in the morning(i am doing this for my kids). and that was. Thank you being here. How should behave from now on....should i find place to stay for some days - that will affect drastically our budget
Thanks
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