Picking up Her MESS #2

[marina7]

Journaling,
Just got off the phone with lawyer, I have some pretty big concerns with W behavior this weekend while picking up S9. This is taking a toll on my d9 she is emotional wreck she has so many emotions and then up top of it W ignores on pick up and drop off while they are sitting there, I as there mom who I promise to God to protect them and guide them and from any harm. I express to my lawyer how do I let s8 and d9 go with her this weekend and her upcoming weekends when she can't even acknowledge them during drop off for a few seconds, lawyer understands my concerns and address them to her lawyer in an email but my lawyer said we can't make W be human or have feeling or emotions W must want to get help herself and you must keep protecting them like you have. W is a WAW a MLCer and in PTSD due to being a veteran's and I actually am starting to believe W might be a narcissist. W has lot's of demons to fight off. I actually think I can say there will never be a W and I again there is to much damage done with us as a FAMILY. W broke this family to the ground we are slowly picking ourselves up but kids and I have a long process. I pray to God this doesn't affect my kids future there own family when they get older. I wish there was something I could have done to made things better for W but I know in reality there's nothing I can do but pray and keep asking God to lead her into his arms again so her healing can begin.