Frustration...I just have to keep my focus on moving forward, through the crappy things, right through to the other side.
** Positives: I have been in my house for 23 odd years now. The bathroom wasn't new when I moved in. It could do with a refresh. Now is the time obviously. Well, not **right now** but one that should be on my radar for the near future.
** Positives: I updated my freelance work CV (the work that's in the same field as m EX).
I've always just replied on what came along in that field, and never actively reached out to find some work. So last week I worked on my CV and a covering letter. And dang, it's impressive. in 14 years of working in that industry I've amassed some very impressive experience.
So I sent some targeted (personal) emails to look for some freelance work for this year. And I've had some very positive answers back.
** Positives: I took part in an event for my creative work yesterday. Not only did it feel really good, but I got a chance to chat with some industry friends I haven't seen for a good while, and we bandied about a few ideas for projects for this year.
** Positives: Dentist tomorrow. At the moment I am feeling more happy to be doing something proactive for my health and being adult about it, than feeling afraid and wanting to run away (I am **majorly** frightened of the dentist and have been since I was a child, so this is a really big step for me).
I also spoke of my fears with the wonderful man I'm with. Tricky one for me...I'm trying to let myself know that it's OK to let someone in and let them be close to you when you're not at your best, either physically or psychologically.
But our life together is so peaceful and calm and gentle, that it somehow feels safe and OK for me to do so.
** Positives Today is the day I pay off my mortgage.
I'm going to make it a bit of a thing. Get dressed nicely, make sure my hair and makeup is well done.
One of my friends suggested treating myself to something afterwards. There's nothing that I particularly want to buy. I would love a good health and creative work day today though, so perhaps I will make that my treat to myself?
