Sotto and Job, thanks for the great suggestions. However, I never even got to the interview process. I submitted my application through our internal transfer, never even spoke to anyone regarding the position, they filled it internally within the unit and the hospital before I even got to an interview. I had the application up since October, and in the beginning of December just got around to consider people for the position. I networked well prior, and a few people called in a recommendation for me within the system who worked there. Even the physician advisor I would be working with. The other, job, well, they were going to get me in for an interview, but I couldn't take the pay cut. I once had a job I chased after for 2 years, even got turned down the first time around, and I finally got it, only to get laid off in the first 9 months.
I have no choice but to stay within the system. I'll keep looking. One recruiter from within my position suggested the possibility of working per diem to get my foot in the door until a full-time position opened up. I am considering doing so at the hospital in my system close to my house. I would work every other weekend. It would be a helluva lot, but lets make lemonade out of lemons, I am single, and have every other weekend to myself so some extra cash wouldn't hurt. I would be exhausted and often work 8 days in a row, but whatevs. I am going to take time to consider if this option if the right one for me.
Doodler, I asked thought long and hard about what you wrote. I asked myself, "have I ever made lemonade out of lemons?" I was able to come up with so many times that I have. usually in a job situation too. My current situation is lemonade out of lemons. I got laid off, I needed a job, I applied to this one amongst many, I had idea what the position actually entailed, but the money and hours were right, they liked me and I took it. Wasn't my dream job, but I focused on the positives, and at the time, there were more. I also took advantage of it and got my degree when my job was fairly easy and there was less stress. My injury and surgery? OMG, that was the last thing I needed! Going tp physical therapy for over 6 months? What a huge inconvience especially since I had to take my daughter. Our night time routine seriously got screwed. But I said I might as well make the best of it and enjoy it as my free gym membership. I made friends, I learned to enjoy it and look at is as fun rather than inconvience.
When I had to leave college and get my own apartment because my mother turned back to drugs when I was 19, I thought that was the pits, but I am forever thankful for how independent I was forced to become. I had no choice but to learn to live on my own and provide for myself. I am forever thankful for that opportunity, because I knew how to handle myself when my husband left me at a young age. I had a career and providing for myself was nothing new. I had a baby to provide for too, but I learned how.
So yeah, I know how to turn negatives into positives. Sometimes there simply is no positive. I can't find one right now. So, I'll accept that this really blows, but I'll just keep chugging along and set out for a new plan of action.
For a little while, I am going to lay low though and not kill myself trying to change things. I will try to learn to how to be happy here, but I don't know that I can be. One tiny thing has to change. Job wise, social wise, relationship wise. But it's pretty stale right now and I'll have to earn how to be happy where I am.
And Sunny, you are absolutely right. I just need some sun.
