I get what you are all saying (and i have read the detachment article Job) but...
the thing is this: About 2 months ago i would have done ANYTHING for her to tell me what she has told me now, that she wants to get back together with me.
So i kinda feel like what if this is my last shot at getting back together with her? It is possible that if i "push her" away now (i know technically it's not pushing away when you detach correctly but it feels like it to her nevertheless) she will look elsewhere for love and attention.
I guess i already know the answer and i am just not ready to admit it
I know that there is no going back to how things were, too much has happened and has been said for that.
I also know that we are both not ready yet for a NEW relationship, since she isn't baked yet and i am not where i want to be yet as well but...here we are?
Since she is still very emotionally driven right now she will not understand what i am saying so i suppose there really isn't anything more i can do beyond what i already do.
It just drives me nuts that she has been somewhat "stable" in her behavior for a while now (about a week) which hasn't happened in a long time, since before it used to be opposite day EVERY DAY!