Hi everyone, last day with my girls today until next Sunday. My youngest had a basketball game this am and my oldest had soccer practice so I spent some time with the W.
After my oldests practice they wanted to go to the store and get a new toy, the love those LOL Dolls so we picked out a couple and now I just got done doing their laundry and packing up their things for the week.
I remember when kid exchange used to bother me and I would get really stressed out seeing the W and interacting with her. Now it's no big deal. I also remember how upset I was early on knowing I was not going to see my kids for a while. I wouldn't say it is no longer a big deal but the pain has definately subsided.
I drop this off late this afternoon so I will probably just chill out at home tonight and catch up on some Netflix. I will hit the gym tomorrow morning, then church and then over to a freinds house to watch some football then back to work on Monday
Just some obsersvations on the W. I know a lot of times we refer to the WAW having scrambled brains for a brain. I had a good example of that today. On Thursday I sent the W an email about the kid schedule for the upcoming week and I also informed her what time the practices and games where today. So even though I gave her the information and she confirmed/agreed to the schedule I get a text last night at 11:30 asking me where the games where at today and what time. Then while we were sitting next to each other today at practice she asked me what the schedule was. When she asked I started laughing (sorry I did not validate) and reminded her of times/schedule and reminded her the information was in the email. I was like geex woman, I know you could have truely forgot but where is your mind????
Still no word on D, it's been almost 3 months since she last brought it up. Based on the answer I gave I doubt she brings it up again unless she is ready to proceed 100%. She knows she can't hang that over my head any more. She was talkative, we joked around some, she touched my arm at one point in time and was behaving in the same manner she has been.
I know I am journaling a little bit about our interactions but strangly enough being in limbo has become easier over time. I'm not sure if it supposed to be that way or not but for me it is. I guess over time I have accepted a number of different things and I really understand at this point in time it is really up to her.
I know a number of folks on the board have recently been served and I really thought she was going to bring up the conversation again after the holidays. I also know one of her enablers is going through a D as well and I believe has already consulted a L and her and her soon to be Ex are starting the process. Based on that information I assume that would help her proceed but I guess it is just an example of no matter what enablers the WAW has around them ultimately the choice is theirs and the enablers don't make it for them.
Stay strong everyone, give yourself space and distance. It does get easier over time!
