Wild ride and now trapped in the Bermuda Triangle

[dmoy]

Well, back for the first time in a while. Things seemed to improve over Christmas. Had been separated around 6 months at that point. Got the courage to ask WAW over for Christmas dinner since I had the kids that afternoon and she had no plans. After a bit of convincing she actually agreed which shocked me. She came, and had a good time.

Over Christmas break I had the opportunity to spend time time w/ her and the kids on a few occasions. We goofed around, did things together and had a good time. I focused on my kids while there but noticed her constantly watching me out of the corner of my eye. Checking out my my interactions with the kids and smiling. Things seemed to be going good. The first week of her back to work after the break went OK, but that weekend she spent with friends and seemingly has reverted to being her old self.

I've recognized that work stresses her out and have tried to empathize, help mitigate, encourage, and even take the kids sometimes to eliminate additional stress. But I think some of her work friends that she vented to last year were culprits in WAW becoming a reality and giving up on our marriage shortly after renewing our vows. I can't say for certain, but the perception is she spent time with them and then completely changed her tune.

I understand there will be ups and downs, but this seems a bit extreme. Maybe not. I don't think there's much I can do about who she surrounds herself with. I just need to remind myself to move on and hopefully at some point she stops listening to the people stoking the hatred in her heart. Even worse is that I've noticed some of her other friends, the ones who did encourage her to work on things with me the first time, are now "separated."