Well. It's done. Incredibly tough to do. Had a talk with WW and left the road clear and paved. I feel I have established a bright light house for not only WW but even more importantly for S14.
I will continue GAL and maintain the 180s I've made.
I am having bouts of intense sadness because I miss W. Unfortunately WW has replaced her and the woman I love only lives on in my memories and my heart. There is no guarantee that she will ever return. This is the saddest I've ever felt in my life, but I am dealing with it very well.
I dropped the rope in the most unexpected way for me... The realization that what I'm leaving behind are memories of a W that has more or less "passed away" has really given me comfort and some closure. I can not bring back "the dead" any more than I can snap WW back into reality. I don't even know who WW is.
In the end, I had to make this decision in order to protect my kids. I am good with my decision. I am strong and I am capable of finding happiness. Life goes on, and it's the life that I've been making through GAL.
I won't ever let anyone do this to me again.
I'd like to say a sincere thank you to my DB family here. You have all made my life bearable, survivable, and inspired me to make my life even better. I am not leaving, but I will probably not be as active as I have been lately because I want to take some time to myself to heal as much as possible.
I'll post from time to time if any substantial changes in my sitch happen, and to check on some of you whom I've become fond of.
Thanks again. Keep fighting the good fight.
Save yourself. Nobody is coming! BD:11/2017 Filed:12/2017 Final: 2/2018