You seem like such a good person, but your posts often frustrate me. When life hands you lemons, you don't seem to know how to make lemonade. Usually it just requires a shift in attitude; a setback can become an adventure. I wish you could grasp that.
That's the segue to a doodler anecdote. My mom was (and is) somewhat neurotic and a bit of a nervous-Nelly. When I was 16 we went on a family trip. On the way home, I was driving and my Dad was navigating. We went past an exit on the interstate and my Mom said, "We should've gotten off at that exit." She kept going on-and-on about how we missed our exit; it was as if the world was coming to an end. I said, "Mom, we can go to the next exit and then go the other direction; it's no big deal." Well, apparently it was a big deal. In her mind, the world was ending and that was that.
Anyway, we arrived at the next exit and the most wondrous thing happened. That particular exit happened to be the correct exit, not the one that my Mom thought was the correct exit. My Mom was quiet the rest of the trip.
The point is, we often become so enamored and focused on what we believe is supposed to happen, even if we may have no control over the situation, that we fail to look around and see all of the other possibilities. One of those possibilities is that you're actually right where you wanted to be and you didn't even know it. But, something else to consider, what if we'd missed our exit and that mistake led to an opportunity to do something fun and different that we wouldn't have otherwise considered? You can be angry about an outcome or you can find a way to turn it into something beneficial; it's just a change in attitude.
