Gord, you sound like you have come to the place that I have...kind of like a WTF attitude as to what they have and are continuing doing. We love them, but hate their actions. Until they realize what they did and have remorse as to the sitch, there is no possibility of reconciliation.
As Sotto said, we all need to find that place of healthy self-regard and acceptance. Without that we will remain lost and in limbo.
What's that old saying...It's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. We did not choose this path and would have never put our spouses thru something like this, but this is our reality. Ask God to direct your steps and he will guide you. We can ask him to change other people, but that rarely works, unless that other person wants to change. Be strong in your faith and take care of your kids. That is your most important job.
You are a rockstar!
Me 49 W46 T25 M22 S22 D18 S13 W had EA Apr-Jul 2016 Dropped Bomb 7/9/16 ILYBINILWYA HER DIVORCE IS FINAL...8/18/17 Dropping the rope to SURVIVE & THRIVE!!!