Gordie #16: walking away from from MLC W

[Gordie]

Kyh—you are right but the pretzel ing has just exhausted me. I just can’t do it anymore.

Ownit—master of brinksmanship! Yes, absolutely. She is a master but you have shown me her playbook!

Journaling:

So I think there’s a part of d b that I couldn’t do which is faking detachment. I couldn’t do it. It’s taken well over a year but I think true detachment is finally growing and I’m not faking and stbx can tell.

I’m a few weeks from moving out and the knowledge of that has also empowered me. Yes, there is an end to this chapter of the story and I determined it. She didnt push me out. I’m choosing to leave.

I think butterfly or ownit predicted some of her recent actions. One morning, I did wake up with her in my bed. She must have come in the middle of the night and laid down. She tried to snuggle and yes, I was tempted to have sex with her but I did not. I left the room and we never spoke of it. I wasn’t angry but just...tired of the whole situation: when is she going to leave me alone?

She has also been full of compliments about my appearance and inquiries about my life and I am always kind and friendly but I keep it short.

Thanks all! Have a great weekend.