Husband gone for the second time - 2

[Caz49]

And I think taking time to focus on you and not your marriage is the best thing you can do right now.

It's not moving on or away from your H, it's moving forward to finding who you really are, what makes you happy etc. It's a good thing, growth. Growth is always good. Try to find optimism. Not for your marriage...and I'm not saying discard hope for your marriage...but optimism with life in general. I can feel a change in you, and that's good. As you said, find the positives.