Ownit, yeah I'm not feeling convinced that there's nothing I could have done, but because you all have more experience I'll tell myself it's true. I see his problems as separate from mine, that the things I did wrong don't excuse what he did wrong. It's going to take some effort to change my mindset. I'll let him go, but still hope someday, whenever it might be, that there could be some kind of peace and forgiveness. I'll try to let go of that hope as well, but I'm not quite there yet.
