Hi Nicole,

It's good to have some insight into your own role in the marriage. What you've described is hurt and anger...two very understandable things after an affair. Don't beat yourself up...learn from it.

Nothing excuses your H's actions and words...you didn't make him do or say these things. Please keep that in your mind going forth.

You've sent your apologies, he's got time to read and digest them. Give him space now. Give yourself space. Continue on the road to being the best you, you can be. Find your happiness without him right now, who knows what the future will bring. Letting go in a loving way doesn't mean giving up...it just gives you both time to breathe.

Just stop blaming yourself. It's a normal natural cycle of emotions but try and find your happiness. xx


Me 50 H 48
S 23 S 21 D 19
Together 31 years
Married 25 years
Separated April 2009 Reconciled 2010
Separated September 2017