My work will be forever. It don't stop or get easier after recon. Your W temp tested you and you failed. You need to let her go, now!!!! You deserve better.
You are her plan B! Period. You are her second option. Period! No more being plan B or option 2. You need to take your life back and stop worrying about your W. Next time she ask you questions about loving her say the exact same thing you said last time. "I've told you many times how I feel". Next time she ask you to give her a back rub, you say, "I will not be giving you back rubs as long as I'm a plan B". Next time she ask you to take her to dinner, "you tell her, you will not be taking her to dinner as long as you are her plan B". No more being plan B. Stop it A.
Get your respect back.
M:37 W:37 T:11 M:10 S17, S13, S10, S4 BD:06/28/17 OM confirmed 07/20/17 Recon the M 10/29/17 Working hard:2gether
Onward and forward
This process is not a sprint it's a marathon! Patience, Patience, Patience.