I will say this, I just went down south to visit a friend for 5 days. I have mentally been doing so well with this whole thing, and I am finally seeing I do not want this current R/M. There is no way in Hades I will ever put up with this in the future. I have gained so much knowledge from therapy, self help books, and just being on my own. I am actually excited for who ever I share my life with in the future. I am going to continue and work on myself through this whole thing.
i am happy that you seem to have found your worth... i know this has been painful for you, but i keep going back to this: better now than 10, 20, 25 years from when when you and WW have a family... i know this does not take away from the loss of your marriage as it was... but you have so much going for you... you deserve so much better... if she ever is going to be your future, she has a lot of work to do... i hope you do not lose sight of that--especially on the 20th when the two of you sort through wedding stuff... it's wedding stuff... it can get emotional... do you really have to do it together?
