rminer, Sorry you are going through this we all LBS know the pain your going through, is like gasping for air and your trying to catch your breath trust me I wouldn't wish this pain on amyone. What joe trying to say, let's say you do get divorce what do we do after a separation we GAL we go out meet new people make new friends ect, in my case I have 3 small kids under 10, they keep me busy and I stay busy with school activity. But on my free time without kids I go to movie's, or drinks with bf. Before things got worse with W, on W weekends I would be dress up when W came by she notice everything I got the temper check couple times, I finally started to see W true colors towards me and our kids.
If your religious go to church, with me church has been my peace my safe place where I could cry my eyes out. And take care of yourself always get plenty of rest by some tea to take if you can't sleep. Always you first. Your kids need you now more than ever.
Take it a day at a time.
At BD Lesbian marriage Me39,W36 S9,D9,S8 adopted all three Together almost 10yrs Bomb Drop - April 2017 W movedout - May,2017 OW June,2017 Currently 2018 Me40, W38 S10,D10,S9