Gordie it's ok to have those feelings. Given the circumstances, it's natural. I've felt the same. Really, be kind to yourself right now. xoxoxoxo {{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}

M 20+ T25+
S ~15.5 (BD)
BD 4/6/15
D 12/23/16

"Someone I loved once gave me
A box full of darkness.
It took me years to understand,
That this too, was a gift."
~ Mary Oliver