Hi Neutral, let me clarify - I didn't have the newly in love feelings at BD, but I would still feel my breath catch when I saw exh, or have a little flutter in my chest. That never went away, even after 26 years. It wasn't the same as when we were first together but it was definitely an in love feeling. It was born of intimacy and trust, so it was "quieter" if you will, but no less precious - actually, to me it was more precious. Well, it's gone now.

also that should have read jugular, not juggler. I truly despise auto-incorrect but serves me right for surreptitiously typing at work ;/

On a positive note? someone who comes into our office from time to time for his work called me by the same nickname exh gave me and it didn't even cause a twinge, much less the fountain of tears it would have caused not so long ago - so Gordie, time. Time heals all wounds and wounds all heels ... there's a little Nick Lowe love for ya xoxoxo

M 20+ T25+
S ~15.5 (BD)
BD 4/6/15
D 12/23/16

"Someone I loved once gave me
A box full of darkness.
It took me years to understand,
That this too, was a gift."
~ Mary Oliver