Sorry to see you go Blu! Thank you for sharing with us what you could share and I have learned immensely from your insights. You have a great way with words.
I am sorry that your situation has taken this turn. I wish you all the best. I will leave you with one of my most favorite poem verses that gets me through every day right now - I am translating it into English as best as I can.
Make your 'Self' So Resilient and Strong That before Fate Comes Knocking The Creator will Ask You "Tell Me; What is is That You Desire?"