No. You are not crazy. You are not paranoid. I'm sorry. There is a massive power loss when someone gaslights us and tries to make us feel our gut instincts are wrong. My personal experience is that my instincts are usually spot on. I suspect yours are also.
It is going to take you time to process this, Cil. It's a lot to take in on multiple levels. I wish I could make you a cup of tea and give you a big hug right now. I so relate to this as my exh snuck away to Hawaii on our 21st wedding anniversary and tried to make me pay half the bill when it all came out in the open during the discovery period of our mediation. Um. NO.
So, I have a very tiny window into how you must feel right now.
All I can say honey is you will get through this, absolutely. I'm happy you are no longer married to someone who would treat you in this way. You deserve so very much more, Cil.
What remains is that he continues to be connected to you (by his behavior). Time to close that cake shop, right?
This is now all about you and how you move forward. We love you and are here for you. Time to take your power back fully, Cil. You can do it!
xoxoxoxoxo
M 20+ T25+ S ~15.5 (BD) BD 4/6/15 D 12/23/16
"Someone I loved once gave me A box full of darkness. It took me years to understand, That this too, was a gift." ~ Mary Oliver
