Am struggling badly today. I missed DS4 very much - it was his weekend with WH. Today is Monday and I got to see him for ten minutes before we had to leave for school, and the last time I saw him was Friday morning. In that ten minutes, he just piped out from nowhere - "Daddy said he's always going to be with 'OW name'." My heart just died.
I asked him why did WH say that - was it because DS had asked him if he was coming home again? I said we don't ask WH/Daddy that anymore. DS4 just kept quiet. I'm guessing he did.
I am all over the place this morning. I have to see WH later today to talk about the divorce settlement.
My in-laws offered to lend me some money to buy WH out on the condition they have an interest in my house. This is my only hope of retaining the family home. I got a text while I was at lunch with a friend yesterday from MiL saying that they were still happy to help but would only offer me a reduced sum. I just cried into my soup. They know I can't proceed without the sum they originally committed just before Christmas. I feel I am being out-manouvered.
When my in-laws first offered to lend me the money, WH was really cross with them. I think the in-laws think this is their way of keeping both sides happy - well, keeping him happy and screwing me over but in a nice way - he gets his outcome in that my counter offer is now screwed, and they get to pretend that they tried to help me. They have access to the full sum - they've just withdrawn it.
I feel very frightened, and under attack. Close to tears. The stability of remaining in the house was the one thing I was clinging to - God has been nowhere so that's been no use.
