In a somewhat "lucid" moment she told me today that she is feeling bad about everything that is happening and that she knows that she is ruining our lives and that it is all her fault.
I just listened and didn't know what to say... She then said that she was constantly thinking and pondering about her family and friends and what they would say when we get divorced (they're pretty traditional) so that kinda put a damper on things on my end since i thought for a second there she had a "change of heart moment" when all she thinks about is what other people would think of her in this situation.
She IS confused, she said so herself just now but i feel that inside, she really sees no other choice but to go forward with D, she is only prolonging it because she is afraid of the consequences and implications (social, financial, comfort, our son etc.)
