Thanks FastCars. I am really being good about self care and GAL. I guess there's just no way for this not to be super tough. Just a process I have to go through. I have no idea how my best friend turned into a complete stranger that can't seem to stand me.

I think I'm going through the hopeless/depression phase of grief.

DB August 6, 2017 after 3 month separation
Me: 54
H: 58
Two Teenage sons
Living Separately from H
Married 19 years, together 22 years
Not sure if this is an MLC or WAS