New LBS dealing with WW Part 4

[Joe2017]

Thanks Nicole. I am so heartbroken for the both of us. Our spouses used to be so great, and now they are different people.

I hate that moving us out of the MH will give WW a victory and make me less masculine to her and my boys. Unfortunately she does not see me as anything but a scapegoat and a target for gaslighting now, anyhow. As far as S16, I have plenty of time to make up for it. He already carries himself as a strong young man, so he will be OK. S14 will get brainwashed to hate me by WW. I have sown and planted the seeds, I just hope they take root and grow when he is ready.

Today I figured out what I am so deathly afraid of. I am horribly scared of being alone. It scares me so much. Yeah, I know I'm not ALONE with my boy. But my future was planned out as a family. Now it will just be the two of us. I have no backup in life anymore. I had become so trusting of my wife that I was left completely vulnerable.

I know it is not permanent. I know I will find another even more wonderful woman. But for now, it's going to be the two of us.

Time to saddle up.