You seem very raw. It's understandable. In general real is good. Turning things around and viewing them from different angles helps. In view of where you have been, it is understandable that you would relate more to a walkaway mentality than you did before, and that is helpful information for everyone here.
I guess I just caution you to avoid some of the same traps you see in others. People come here from a certain perspective. Lets face it. The folks on the other side are in the minority, but their views are especially valued by others (sandi and now artista for example). However, often when we feel judged, it is because it is we who are judging ourselves. Just think about whether there could be some of that going on.
People come here because they are hurt. They come here to vent. If they are spouse bashing, its probably something that needs to happen for healing. I've done it. Sometimes I hate mine, and sometimes I feel really, really bad for him.
I think everyone here cares about you and the feelings you are expressing are good for everyone to hear and consider. I hope that you feel safe enough to come back and let us continue to learn from your experiences.
